justrun-.

damn

i thought people were meant to have different identities.
i thought.. it was okay to make mistakes, afterall, nobody's perfect.
i thought that my best was enough.

but NO.

why on earth people seem to think that everyone should fall into the "perfect person" mould. perfect daughter, perfect sister, perfect student, perfect athlete. if you've been told that nobody's perfect, well then you've been lied to. because i know someone who's absoulutely perfect. who never makes mistakes. or at least everyone seems to see her that way.

and somehow, everyone wants me to be like miss perfect.

my best is never enough for anyone. because obviously my best is not equal to miss perfect's best. it falls far below that.

well you know what? i am NOT miss perfect. i will NOT TRY to be miss perfect. cos i am who i am. you want to change it? you should have thrown me into a garbage chute the moment i was born. i think i co-exist with garbage better than i do with you people.

you want to scold me? fine. scold me. but just remember that your scoldings with "this is not a scolding" disclaimers, ARE FRICKIN KILLING ME like some deadly terminal disease. one by one, my organs get shut down. and with every breath i take, life painfully gets sucked out of me.

you want arrogant? you want angsty? you want unreasonable?

i'll give you just that.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [22:10]

and took [20060112] strides

it's the passion that drives you